I'm shocked and amazed right now. I've started writing a multi-chapter Bella/Edward fic and posted it on Twilighted. I've understood that it's not very easy to get a story validated over there if it's not very well-written, so I honestly didn't hope to be so lucky.

But guess what? My story got accepted! *happydance* And I have already gotten 5 reviews (all positive) and 17 people have added it to their favorites. Wow.

I got the idea when I re-read my Spuffy story Healing and started wondering if I could do something similar. Now Twilighted apparently don't allow any graphic details about such a dark subject, but I'll do my best to work with that.

It's just the prologue that's really similar to Healing, the rest of the story will be different. My author name over there is Nilla, just thought I'd mention it in case anyone would stumble on my story over there, don't wanna be accused of plagiarizing my own story. :)

I'll start on the second chapter tomorrow.

So, I've posted the last chapter of my last Spuffy story. This is it. My days as a Spuffy fanfic author is over, I think. It feels weird because writing Spuffy has been such a big part of my life for the last couple of years.

To all the people out there who have supported my work over the years, I feel like just saying 'thank you' is not good enough, but I don't know what else to say. So, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Now I feel like crying. *sigh* Guess I'm too emotional for my own good.

Been a while since I last posted something here. I've started writing the final chapter of 'Claws' and I intend to be done with it by the end of the weekend. It'll be weird not to have any more stories to work on.

On another note, I'm SOOO frustrated right now. I've been checking B/E all-human fics at ff.net and 90 percent of what I've found is pure crap. It may sound harsh, but that's the way I feel.

And what really annoys me is that many of the authors start their chapters with stuff like "I know this is bad but it's my first fic so please read..." and "I know there's a lot of mistakes in here but..." and "the summary sucks but..." I could go on for hours.

I'm not perfect in any way and I make a lot of mistakes with my writing, I'm sure. But some of the stuff I've read there is ridiculous. I admit, I did find a couple of stories that are really well-written, unfortunately very few.

I know this site doesn't have the best reputation and I've never really bothered to check it out before because of that reason. But I was bored, so what can I say?

And now I'm sure I've insulted some people, don't know if anyone who's reading this are posting their stories at ff.net. If that's the case, I'm sorry. I just had to get it out. I feel kinda bitchy at the moment.

So, yesterday I finished reading Breaking Dawn. Kinda sad it's over, but I guess I can always start reading all the books again from the beginning. I really liked it. I was a little surprised that Bella got changed so early in the book, for some reason I had gotten the idea it would happen towards the end.

I actually don't hate Jacob anymore. Well, I know I will most likely hate him again when I start re-reading New Moon and Eclipse, but I'll try to remember that he changes for the better eventually. :)

I've been suffering from writers block for the last couple of days, which made me panic for a while. I actually considered giving up on my story, feeling like I wouldn't be able to finish it after all. But today I managed to write about 400 words on chapter 34, so maybe I'm getting back there. I also still have one more chapter written.

Now I'm gonna go find a nice fic to read.

I'm sitting here in my living room with a nice drink (red bull/vodka) and reading fic after fic while adding them to my favorites. I remember when I first discovered Spuffy fan fiction and the thrill of just going through the archives of never ending stories.

I'm completely in love with the Twilight fan fic archive 'Twilighted'. So many wonderful stories, and the amount of reviews the authors are getting is absolutely breath-taking. I spotted a twenty-something chapter fic that had received over 4000 reviews. I'm not kidding.

I've found so many WIP stories on that site that is just my type of fics, and I do my best to let the authors know how much I enjoy their work. I also hope to be able to contribute something of my own eventually.

There's a lot of talking and warnings on the site about 'lemons' that I don't quite understand and I feel kinda stupid to ask. I'm pretty sure it has to do with sexual contents, but if someone here's familiar with the concept, please fill me in!

As for the actual Twilight books, I've started reading Breaking Dawn, about to start on chapter 11. Not sure how I feel about it so far. I'm not too keen on reading JPOV (Jacob, not Jasper).

I was actually deeply disappointed about the missing sex scenes, guess I've been reading too much fan fiction and blocked out that these books are also meant for younger people. *sigh* Oh well, that's what fics are for, I suppose.

I am actually writing on my Spuffy story in between reading, and hope I'll be able to finish it before the year is over. *lol* I've just started writing chapter 32 and it involves one of those scenes I absolutely dread to write. (If you know me, you know what I'm talking about)

Wow, this turned out to be one long entry, guess I just had a lot to get out of my system. Now I'm gonna go out to the kitchen and get myself another drink. Hope y'all have a wonderful weekend. I'm stuck with a stubborn cold myself. Which means I'm allowed to spend all day in front of my lap top. :D

Fed up about my ramblings about Twilight? Just ignore this post then, because here we go again...

I'm about to start reading Breaking Dawn and I'm really excited, but at the same time, I don't really want to start because then it'll be over soon and there will be no more books to read. I know, I'm weird.

I've also become hooked by Edward/Bella all-human fics. I hesitated at first, just like I did with Spuffy, thinking it wouldn't be the same without the vamps. But there are some really, really great stories out there.

Still don't think I'll be writing anything of my own in this verse, but then again, I'm pretty sure I once said the same thing about Spuffy. I did find a Twilight fic site that seems really good, looking through the stories and feel like a little girl on Christmas. *lol*

By the way, another chapter of my story 'Claws' is up on SR and EF. I wonder if that one will be as long as 'Healing'. Wouldn't surprise me.

Enough ramblings for this time. Gonna search for some Twilight LJ communities. Pretty sure there are a few out there.

I've almost finished reading Eclipse. I like that one better than New Moon. But I absolutely HATE Jacob. *lol* Also, I've been reading some Edward/Bella fics lately. A whole new world of fan fiction is opening up to me. :D

I haven't read a whole Spuffy story for quite some time now. I still check for updates at the sites but somehow, I feel more for Twilight at the moment. Feels kinda weird. Never thought I'd get tired of Spuffy.

Not saying I'm leaving the Spuffy fandom completely, but the way I feel now, the story I'm currently writing (Claws of Evil) might very well be my last. I can't see myself starting on another one, at least not right now. But I WILL finish Claws, as I simply refuse to leave one of my stories hanging.

That said, I'll go back to the story I'm reading. It's called Armageddon and it's the first Bella/Edward multi-chapter story I've read so far. It's a good one. I feel kinda giddy at the moment. *lol* Lots and lots of new fics to read. Yay!

I just finished reading New Moon. *sigh* This is kinda depressing in a way; I actually read a Bella/Edward fic today. I never read any other fics than Spuffy. But now I'm hooked by the Twilight saga. Tomorrow I'll start reading Eclipse. I wasn't too fond of the angst in NM, I want my favorite couple to be together all the time. But, and I'm ashamed to admit it, I checked the last page of the story before I started reading and I knew they would get back together in the end. *blush* I even checked the last page of Breaking Dawn, yes, I'm a spoiler whore. *lol*

I just realized I haven't written anything here in a month. I started working again today, which wasn't so bad. I've actually missed the little ones and they were all happy to see me again. Still, I wouldn't have minded another week off. :)

As for my story (Claws), I keep writing. I still don't feel the interest is anywhere near as great as it's been for some of my previous fics, but I've realized it doesn't really matter.

For the first time ever, I don't feel like I just have to write to please the readers, I actually feel like I write for myself. And I've decided to keep posting because I'm proud of how this story's turning out.

I've just started on chapter 18 and I think there will be at least 30 chapters when it's complete, maybe more. Since I started this fic, I've been writing almost every day, something I've never done before.

Now I'll get back to my story. If anyone of my faithful readers/reviewers are reading this; your lovely comments mean the world to me and I hope you'll keep enjoying my updates!

Right now, I'm writing. In case anyone's wondering, I decided to take my new story down from SR. At first I was going to give up on it completely, seeing how people didn't seem interested enough and it really scared my muse off. Still, a few encouraging comments - and not to mention mabel_marsters kind offer to beta - made me change my mind.

The truth is, I feel too strongly about this story to just leave it hanging. When I first started it, I hadn't been so excited about one of my stories since 'Healing'. Or maybe I feel even more for this one.

So, I'll re-post my story when I've written a few more chapters. I'm in the middle of the third chapter right now and will probably get that one finished today or tomorrow. And the story is still up over at EF.

Just had to write this down as a promise to myself (and to my readers if there are any) that I will keep writing and eventually finish this fic as well.