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1st-May-2010 07:29 pm - *squeeee*
Look what I got! NoahEvansMom aka Lauras1sttime made me this lovely, lovely gif/blinkie for my story 'Loner'. She's incredibly talented and I absolutely love it. :D

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26th-Feb-2010 10:32 pm(no subject)
Been quite a while since I posted anything here now. I've been too busy writing on my story, plus I haven't really had anything special to write about in here.

Lately, I've realized that I really wish I'd discovered Spuffy fan fiction sooner, like when the show was still on and everybody was excited because it was all still new. Because it's kind of like that now with the Twilight fandom.

The support and interest from the readers at Twilighted is absolutely amazing. I actually got a hundred reviews (seriously) after just the last chapter I posted. I thought the support I got for 'Healing' was incredible, but it doesn't even compare.

Anyway, I'm gonna stop with the rambling and find a nice, angsty fic to read. Hope everybody have a great weekend!
25th-Dec-2009 09:59 pm(no subject)
I've just made a banner for my fic. I'm not sure if I'm completely happy with it, but considering the fact that I haven't used PS for more than a year and I have to work with the touchpad since I don't have a working mouse to this laptop, I guess it could be worse.

9th-Dec-2009 04:29 pm - Thank you...
...to astoria_potter and rivertempest for the virtual gifts. Merry Christmas to both of you!
19th-Nov-2009 05:12 pm - *squeeeee*
I'm shocked and amazed right now. I've started writing a multi-chapter Bella/Edward fic and posted it on Twilighted. I've understood that it's not very easy to get a story validated over there if it's not very well-written, so I honestly didn't hope to be so lucky.

But guess what? My story got accepted! *happydance* And I have already gotten 5 reviews (all positive) and 17 people have added it to their favorites. Wow.

I got the idea when I re-read my Spuffy story Healing and started wondering if I could do something similar. Now Twilighted apparently don't allow any graphic details about such a dark subject, but I'll do my best to work with that.

It's just the prologue that's really similar to Healing, the rest of the story will be different. My author name over there is Nilla, just thought I'd mention it in case anyone would stumble on my story over there, don't wanna be accused of plagiarizing my own story. :)

I'll start on the second chapter tomorrow.
30th-Oct-2009 10:17 pm - 'In the Claws of Evil' complete
So, I've posted the last chapter of my last Spuffy story. This is it. My days as a Spuffy fanfic author is over, I think. It feels weird because writing Spuffy has been such a big part of my life for the last couple of years.

To all the people out there who have supported my work over the years, I feel like just saying 'thank you' is not good enough, but I don't know what else to say. So, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Now I feel like crying. *sigh* Guess I'm too emotional for my own good.
23rd-Oct-2009 09:11 pm(no subject)
Been a while since I last posted something here. I've started writing the final chapter of 'Claws' and I intend to be done with it by the end of the weekend. It'll be weird not to have any more stories to work on.

On another note, I'm SOOO frustrated right now. I've been checking B/E all-human fics at ff.net and 90 percent of what I've found is pure crap. It may sound harsh, but that's the way I feel.

And what really annoys me is that many of the authors start their chapters with stuff like "I know this is bad but it's my first fic so please read..." and "I know there's a lot of mistakes in here but..." and "the summary sucks but..." I could go on for hours.

I'm not perfect in any way and I make a lot of mistakes with my writing, I'm sure. But some of the stuff I've read there is ridiculous. I admit, I did find a couple of stories that are really well-written, unfortunately very few.

I know this site doesn't have the best reputation and I've never really bothered to check it out before because of that reason. But I was bored, so what can I say?

And now I'm sure I've insulted some people, don't know if anyone who's reading this are posting their stories at ff.net. If that's the case, I'm sorry. I just had to get it out. I feel kinda bitchy at the moment.
28th-Sep-2009 07:02 pm(no subject)
So, yesterday I finished reading Breaking Dawn. Kinda sad it's over, but I guess I can always start reading all the books again from the beginning. I really liked it. I was a little surprised that Bella got changed so early in the book, for some reason I had gotten the idea it would happen towards the end.

I actually don't hate Jacob anymore. Well, I know I will most likely hate him again when I start re-reading New Moon and Eclipse, but I'll try to remember that he changes for the better eventually. :)

I've been suffering from writers block for the last couple of days, which made me panic for a while. I actually considered giving up on my story, feeling like I wouldn't be able to finish it after all. But today I managed to write about 400 words on chapter 34, so maybe I'm getting back there. I also still have one more chapter written.

Now I'm gonna go find a nice fic to read.
19th-Sep-2009 07:22 pm - Another update
I'm sitting here in my living room with a nice drink (red bull/vodka) and reading fic after fic while adding them to my favorites. I remember when I first discovered Spuffy fan fiction and the thrill of just going through the archives of never ending stories.

I'm completely in love with the Twilight fan fic archive 'Twilighted'. So many wonderful stories, and the amount of reviews the authors are getting is absolutely breath-taking. I spotted a twenty-something chapter fic that had received over 4000 reviews. I'm not kidding.

I've found so many WIP stories on that site that is just my type of fics, and I do my best to let the authors know how much I enjoy their work. I also hope to be able to contribute something of my own eventually.

There's a lot of talking and warnings on the site about 'lemons' that I don't quite understand and I feel kinda stupid to ask. I'm pretty sure it has to do with sexual contents, but if someone here's familiar with the concept, please fill me in!

As for the actual Twilight books, I've started reading Breaking Dawn, about to start on chapter 11. Not sure how I feel about it so far. I'm not too keen on reading JPOV (Jacob, not Jasper).

I was actually deeply disappointed about the missing sex scenes, guess I've been reading too much fan fiction and blocked out that these books are also meant for younger people. *sigh* Oh well, that's what fics are for, I suppose.

I am actually writing on my Spuffy story in between reading, and hope I'll be able to finish it before the year is over. *lol* I've just started writing chapter 32 and it involves one of those scenes I absolutely dread to write. (If you know me, you know what I'm talking about)

Wow, this turned out to be one long entry, guess I just had a lot to get out of my system. Now I'm gonna go out to the kitchen and get myself another drink. Hope y'all have a wonderful weekend. I'm stuck with a stubborn cold myself. Which means I'm allowed to spend all day in front of my lap top. :D
12th-Sep-2009 07:23 pm - My new obsession...
Fed up about my ramblings about Twilight? Just ignore this post then, because here we go again...

I'm about to start reading Breaking Dawn and I'm really excited, but at the same time, I don't really want to start because then it'll be over soon and there will be no more books to read. I know, I'm weird.

I've also become hooked by Edward/Bella all-human fics. I hesitated at first, just like I did with Spuffy, thinking it wouldn't be the same without the vamps. But there are some really, really great stories out there.

Still don't think I'll be writing anything of my own in this verse, but then again, I'm pretty sure I once said the same thing about Spuffy. I did find a Twilight fic site that seems really good, looking through the stories and feel like a little girl on Christmas. *lol*

By the way, another chapter of my story 'Claws' is up on SR and EF. I wonder if that one will be as long as 'Healing'. Wouldn't surprise me.

Enough ramblings for this time. Gonna search for some Twilight LJ communities. Pretty sure there are a few out there.
7th-Sep-2009 07:21 pm - More Twilight...
I've almost finished reading Eclipse. I like that one better than New Moon. But I absolutely HATE Jacob. *lol* Also, I've been reading some Edward/Bella fics lately. A whole new world of fan fiction is opening up to me. :D

I haven't read a whole Spuffy story for quite some time now. I still check for updates at the sites but somehow, I feel more for Twilight at the moment. Feels kinda weird. Never thought I'd get tired of Spuffy.

Not saying I'm leaving the Spuffy fandom completely, but the way I feel now, the story I'm currently writing (Claws of Evil) might very well be my last. I can't see myself starting on another one, at least not right now. But I WILL finish Claws, as I simply refuse to leave one of my stories hanging.

That said, I'll go back to the story I'm reading. It's called Armageddon and it's the first Bella/Edward multi-chapter story I've read so far. It's a good one. I feel kinda giddy at the moment. *lol* Lots and lots of new fics to read. Yay!
4th-Sep-2009 11:16 pm - Twilight
I just finished reading New Moon. *sigh* This is kinda depressing in a way; I actually read a Bella/Edward fic today. I never read any other fics than Spuffy. But now I'm hooked by the Twilight saga. Tomorrow I'll start reading Eclipse. I wasn't too fond of the angst in NM, I want my favorite couple to be together all the time. But, and I'm ashamed to admit it, I checked the last page of the story before I started reading and I knew they would get back together in the end. *blush* I even checked the last page of Breaking Dawn, yes, I'm a spoiler whore. *lol*
10th-Aug-2009 07:15 pm - Update...
I just realized I haven't written anything here in a month. I started working again today, which wasn't so bad. I've actually missed the little ones and they were all happy to see me again. Still, I wouldn't have minded another week off. :)

As for my story (Claws), I keep writing. I still don't feel the interest is anywhere near as great as it's been for some of my previous fics, but I've realized it doesn't really matter.

For the first time ever, I don't feel like I just have to write to please the readers, I actually feel like I write for myself. And I've decided to keep posting because I'm proud of how this story's turning out.

I've just started on chapter 18 and I think there will be at least 30 chapters when it's complete, maybe more. Since I started this fic, I've been writing almost every day, something I've never done before.

Now I'll get back to my story. If anyone of my faithful readers/reviewers are reading this; your lovely comments mean the world to me and I hope you'll keep enjoying my updates!
11th-Jul-2009 06:47 pm - In the Claws of Evil
Right now, I'm writing. In case anyone's wondering, I decided to take my new story down from SR. At first I was going to give up on it completely, seeing how people didn't seem interested enough and it really scared my muse off. Still, a few encouraging comments - and not to mention mabel_marsters kind offer to beta - made me change my mind.

The truth is, I feel too strongly about this story to just leave it hanging. When I first started it, I hadn't been so excited about one of my stories since 'Healing'. Or maybe I feel even more for this one.

So, I'll re-post my story when I've written a few more chapters. I'm in the middle of the third chapter right now and will probably get that one finished today or tomorrow. And the story is still up over at EF.

Just had to write this down as a promise to myself (and to my readers if there are any) that I will keep writing and eventually finish this fic as well.
26th-Jun-2009 07:19 pm - Weeeee!
I've been waiting for this day for months now and finally it's here. My summer vacation starts today - I'll be off work for 3 whole weeks! *happydance*

I'm also happy because the lovely xochantelly has been so kind and made me these beautiful banners for my stories. I love them all! Thanks again, hon! *hugs*









*squeee* Pretty, huh?

Also, right now my decision to take a break with my writing feels like the right thing to do. Now I'm just gonna enjoy the wonderful swedish summer for a while. And maybe read some fics. *lol*
18th-Jun-2009 09:13 pm(no subject)
For the first time in over a year, I have no story to write on. Actually, I believe I've always had at least one wip story since I first started writing fanfiction. And I've really been looking forward to this, to not have to feel the pressure to update all the time.

The problem is just that it's been four days since I posted the final chapter on Lies, and I already miss writing. I'm SO *measures between fingers* close to just say hell with it and start on another story.

But I've promised myself not to, at least not for a while. I'm supposed to just enjoy the summer and the time off. But it looks like I'm suffering from a serious case of writing withdrawals.

*sigh* Think I just need to find a nice long Spuffy fic to read to get my mind off this obsession. Or possibly have a drink. Maybe both...
14th-Jun-2009 07:24 pm - Lies complete!
Wohoo! I've managed to finish yet another story. *happy grin* Have to admit I'm quite pleased with the ending. And I'm SO relieved I was able to keep my promise to myself to never leave a story unfinished. There was a time when I was about ready to give up on my writing, but now I'm happy I didn't.

Now I'm taking a much needed break. I will most likely start on this new story (sequel to 'Reunited') but not for a while. (I hope, but you never know...) Then again, I might just miss writing so much that I'll come up with another one-shot or two. :)

Also, I really need to come up with a title for my next story. That's been bugging me for quite some time. Anyway, a huge thanks to all of you who have kept showing me your support while I've been whining about my writing!
12th-Jun-2009 10:32 pm(no subject)
So, I'm about to finish my last WIP story. Feels kinda weird. A part of me just wants to take a break with my writing. But on the other hand, I have this idea for a sequel to my one-shot 'Reunited'. It would be kinda long and angsty, like my other stories, only not all-human. But lately I've felt that the response to what I write hasn't been all that great. Makes me feel like I might just be wasting my time. So right now, I'm kinda torn. Don't know whether or not I should actually start another story. Maybe I should just quit once I've finished all my WIP stories. Not really sure what I want to do at the moment. Oh well, enough with the pointless rambling. Hope everyone will have a great weekend!
6th-Jun-2009 10:14 am - Vampire's Kiss?
Just wondering if anyone knows what's happened to the site. The link just takes me to another page. Is it down for good or something? In that case, I've completely missed it.
1st-Jun-2009 09:05 pm - I got pretties!
*eeep* I'm so happy! Thank you all who voted and congrats to all the other winners!



9th-May-2009 10:25 pm - The plot bunnies are chasing me...
My stories have always been of the all human kind, but recently, I've gotten all these ideas for general/canon one-shots. Right now, I'm considering doing a Beneath You one-shot and one from Seeing Red. In other words, correcting some of Joss' errors. *lol*

I also need to write the final chapter of Betrayal, keep writing on Lies, and then there's the hopefully-soon-to-be sequel to Reunited.

Oh, right. Just remembered, I also have a life outside of fanfiction. *lol*

Anyway, hope some people out there will be interested in what I will come up with.
8th-May-2009 09:28 pm - New fic
I just got the sudden urge to write a little one-shot, taking place at the end of Chosen. Kinda pleased with how it turned out, only wish it would've happened on the show. Damn you, Joss! Anyway, it's called 'Yes, I Do' and if you wanna check it out, you'll find it here.
26th-Apr-2009 09:56 am - So happy!
Found out Healing got another award. Runner up for Best angst AU at the Absence of Light awards. *squeal* Lookie what I got! :D


24th-Apr-2009 10:27 pm - Twitter
For reasons unknown, even to myself, I just got myself a Twitter account. Really don't know how it works and I'm feeling like such a beginner. My username is the same as here; 00pet00. If anyone wants to follow me, or just explain to me what the hell I've just gotten myself into, feel free! *lol'
3rd-Apr-2009 08:31 pm - New fic?
I now have two wip stories I'm currently working on. When I finally managed to finish Healing, I said to myself that from now on, I will focus on simply one story at the time until I have finished them as well. That would be it. No more stories from me.

But the thing is, there's this idea for a whole new story... Actually, I've been playing with the thought for more than a year; a general fic that would take place after the episode Damage in s5 of AtS.

Of course, it would be long and angsty, but Spuffy all the way, sort of like my other fics, only it wouldn't be all human. The idea itself is quite a challenge for me, since fantasy fics is pretty much what I do. But it would be fun to try something new.

The question is, if I do decide to write it, do I have the patience and motivation to put so much work on yet another fic? I want to, but honestly, I'm not sure. I'm seriously considering it, though.

Oh well, enough with the rambling. Just needed to put my frustrated thoughts into words. Sometimes I really hate the plot bunnies. Wish they could just leave me alone. *lol*
27th-Mar-2009 07:12 pm - Weeeee!
I just found out that my story 'Lies' won Best Fantasy Romance - Judge's Choice at the Spuffy Awards round 16. I'm so extremely happy and grateful. *doing a ridiculous happydance*

To all of you other winners out there - Congrats!

Look what I got! :D



Oh, and the next chapter of 'Lies' is betad and up on the sites. :)
20th-Mar-2009 04:58 pm - I'm amazed...
Over the last couple of days, I've received not just one, but FOUR nominations for my stories.

'Healing' got nominated for Best Story at the Cradle Of Humanity Awards round 3 AND for Best Angst AU at the Absence Of Light Awards (Thanks mabel_marsters!).

'Lies' got nominated for Best Angst at the COH Awards.

'Betrayal' got nominated for Best Romance at the COH Awards.

Words can't express how happy it makes me that people think my stories are good enough to be nominated. Unfortunately, I don't know who to thank for the nominations at COH, but to whoever did, THANK YOU!
12th-Mar-2009 04:30 pm - Help!!
Ok, I'm in a desperate need of some help here. Yesterday, I got an e-mail. What's really frustrating is that my hotmail address won't let me respond to any mail that isn't just hotmail.com.

It's not the first time something like this happens and now I've had enough. I would hate for anyone to think that I just choose to ignore their e-mail, when in reality I simply don't know how to contact them.

My question is: can I get another email address that makes it possible for me to respond to all kind of e-mail? In that case what type of address? Can anyone help me? Please!
11th-Mar-2009 01:57 pm - Healing Complete!
Last night I finally managed to finish the longest fic I've ever written. When I started, I never thought it would turn out this huge. It took one year and three months, but now it's complete. 96 chapters. Wow, It still amazes me that I've been able to write such a long story.

But what amazes me even more is the wonderful support this story has gotten, right from the start. I was kinda nervous about posting it, since the subject is very dark to say the least. But the positive response has been - to repeat myself - absolutely wonderful.

Thanks to my lovely reviewers, this story has made its way up to top 5 at the Most Reviewed Ever list at the Spuffy Realm. Wow. Can't tell you guys how happy I am! Of all the 3600+ stories at the site, only 4 have ever gotten more reviews. Still can't believe it.

Now, I feel both sad and relieved. I'm gonna miss writing Healing. But I haven't forgotten about my other wip stories, which I'm gonna be focusing on now. I plan on finishing Betrayal first, which will probably be about 4 more chapters. Then I'm gonna pick up where I left off on Lies.

I just wanna say THANK YOU!! to all the wonderful people who have read my story, and even more so to all of my readers at The Spuffy Realm, Elysian Fields, Vampires Kiss, Sweet Temptation, B/S Central and Nocturnal Light, who have taken your time to review.

Can't tell you how much I appreciate each and every single one of your comments. If it hadn't been for you guys, Healing would most likely never been finished. Hugs, kisses, and I love you all!

Now, if anyone wants to read Healing as it's complete, you'll find it here.
26th-Feb-2009 04:41 pm - Snagged from practically everybody
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Which Buffy Icons Are For You? by MissEdith
Name:
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Xander Icon:
Giles Icon:
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3rd-Jan-2009 10:13 pm(no subject)
I haven't used photoshop for ages but I just felt like doing something really simple and Spuffy inspired and this is what I came up with.



I used to play with PS all the time, now I've just stopped. Kinda miss it.
25th-Dec-2008 09:44 pm - 2008...
The year's almost over. Let's see... What's happened this year? Well, the year didn't start very well, with me misscarrying for the second time. Was kinda in a bad place for a while, where everything simply sucked. Then I decided I needed a change, didn't like myself very much. Of course, my fiance and my friends said they liked me just the way i was, but it just wasn't enough for me. So, I managed to loose about 48 pounds (22 kg). And now I feel... well, a lot better.

Me and J (fiance) are still trying to get pregnant (for the third time) hoping to get lucky next year. I really want to have a baby before my parents get too old, want them to be able to spend a lot of time with their only grandchild.

I know it's almost a week left of this year, but what the hell. I felt like posting a summary of this year, so I did. Started off kinda badly, but now, things are all right. I just pray to God next year won't be any worse.

To all my LJ friends - I hope the next year will be the best fucking year of your lives! *hugs you all*
23rd-Dec-2008 08:39 pm - Merry Christmas!
Now I'm off work for 2 whole weeks. Wohoo! I plan on doing, well, mostly nothing at all. Except for doing a little writing, of course. And me and my boyfriend are celebrating 8 years the 5th so we'll probably go out for dinner or something. But for now, I'm just gonna enjoy the holidays, eat way too much and drink a lot of wine. Maybe read a fic or two as well...

Oh well, just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas! Hope you'll have a wonderful time!

15th-Dec-2008 02:57 pm - Happydance!
I just found out that my story 'Lies' has been nominated at the Spuffy Awards round 16 for Best Fantasy Romance and Outstanding Fantasy Fic. I'm also nominated for Fantasy Excellent Author! I'm incredibly happy and honored. I don't know who nominated me/my fic, but to whoever did: thank you SO much!
In 2008, 00pet00 resolves to...
Learn to play the vampyreangel17.
Go to larabeckinsale every Sunday.
Eat more btvs.
Connect with my inner spikeslayedlove.
Backup my luvs_bitch regularly.
Go to the james marsters every month.
Get your own New Year's Resolutions:
2nd-Dec-2008 10:12 am - *lol* Dear Santa...
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In April I didn't flush (-1 points). Last Monday I put gum in sarahthebloody's hair (-12 points). Last Wednesday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, maddonna001 (-5000 points). Last Tuesday I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In February I pulled over and changed fyreburned's flat tire (15 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-5698 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
00pet00

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:
27th-Nov-2008 07:14 pm - Another quiz...
Snagged from musicbitch

Your rainbow is intensely shaded pink, violet, and black.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate mystery. You may meet people who are afraid of you. You are a good listener and your friends are glad to have you around in difficult times.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.
31st-Oct-2008 06:35 pm(no subject)
The last couple of days, or maybe even weeks, I've felt like my life has just been spinning faster and faster. So much has been going on in RL, mostly, it's been work-related. Yesterday, I woke up and felt that I just needed a break, so I called in sick. I feel a little bad about it, cause I really like my job. But I'm just completely exhausted. The weird part is, nothing bad has happened. I just felt a desperate need to get away for a few days. Guess we all do sometimes. Anyway, just wanted to wish you all a happy halloween.

25th-Oct-2008 01:21 pm - Ok, didn't see that coming...


You Are a Bad Girl



You are 30% Good and 70% Bad

You're a total bad girl, from your wild hair to tattooed toes.

But you're too badass to even care if you're labeled “bad”!

24th-Oct-2008 04:14 pm - *tired sigh*
So, I got an email from someone who wanted to let me know what she/he thought of one of my stories. Apparently, the reader decided after reading 63 chapters that the plot was thin. Oh well... Unfortunately, my email prevented me from responding so if the person who sent me that mail is reading this, feel free to let me know so I can respond here instead. There's nothing I can't say in front of the rest of the LJ readers.

Honestly, I'm kinda annoyed right now. The last couple of weeks have been really busy and work has been more hectic than ever. I just feel totally exhausted. Thank God it's Friday!

I'm in the middle of writing a new chapter right now and I hope to be able to post it later tonight or tomorrow. But I'm ashamed to admit that writing anything hasn't been my top priority lately. But hopefully that'll change and my muse will return.

Think I'm just gonna pour myself a nice glass of wine and watch another ep of Supernatural before I'll keep focusing on finishing my chapter. God knows I need a break. I hope you all will have a lovely weekend!
15th-Oct-2008 03:31 pm - Hmm. Okay...
Snagged from dorians_kitten



You Are Chopsticks



People see you as exotic, unusual, and even a bit intimidating.

You are a difficult person to figure out.



In truth, you try to live a very simple life.

But most people are too frenzied to recognize the beauty of your simplicity.

Snagged from musicbitch



You Are 70% Normal About Sex



You're so normal about sex, it's a little scary.

Your sexual attitudes and experiences match up with most other people.



Like everyone else, you're a little naughty and a little traditional.

You enjoy sex, but you're not a total freak about it!

26th-Sep-2008 11:39 pm(no subject)
I've bought a laptop! Look! Isn't it pretty?



My other computer's named James-Riley (yes,I'm one of those dorky people who has to name everything so just deal with it) and now I'm trying to think of a good name for this one. Any ideas? (and no, it's not pathetic to name a computer, dammit!) *lol*
24th-Sep-2008 09:10 pm - Frustrated...
I'm so freakin' tired right now. I've been struggling with the latest chapter to one of my fics for days, thankfully I managed to finally finish it. Looks like my muse has once again left the building. It sucks, because I really like both my WIP stories and I want nothing more than to be able to keep writing and eventually finish them. Instead I get stuck staring at the screen for hours. I know what I want with my stories, so why does it have to be so damn hard to get it down? *sigh*

Sometimes I feel like just saying hell with it and give up with the writing. Of course, that's not gonna happen because I've put too much work in my fics and I know there are still some people out there who wants to see how it's gonna end. But sometimes I just seriously lack motivation, something I'm not very proud of.

Gonna stop rambling now, just needed to get it out. It sucks to not having someone in RL who I can talk to about these things. *another sigh* Gonna post my chap now.
19th-Sep-2008 08:31 pm - Snagged from... well, everybody
I miss my old show.
When you see this, post another Buffy quote in your LJ. Let's see how long this can go on.


Spike: Come on! Vampires! Grrr! Nasty! Let’s annihilate them. For justice... and for... the safety of puppies... and Christmas, right? Let’s fight that evil! Let’s kill something! Oh, come on!
27th-Aug-2008 08:32 pm - *happydance*
Wohooo! For some reason, I'm able to get on the internet from my computer again. Thank God! Unfortunately, my files are still gone. But I think I can get most of it back, it will just take some time. I'm really relieved right now. And it's soo good to be back at my own computer, especially since my boyfriend's coming home tomorrow and I wouldn't be able to use his anymore. Now I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that whatever happened won't happen again. *shudders* Thanks for all your comments and support!
26th-Aug-2008 07:52 pm - Grumble grumble...
God, this is so frustrating. My computer crashed the other day and now I can't get on the internet or use my e-mail. (using boyfriend's computer right now) But the worst part is that I lost all my files. What bothers me the most is all the links to my favorite fics, don't remember all the titles. And I also lost a lot of pics from my digital camera which I had obviously forgotten to copy to a cd. Thank God I still have copies of all my JM songs, losing them would be the ultimate disaster. *sigh* Just hope the problem is fixable, I hate being without my own computer. Feels like a part of myself is missing. Yup, I'm that pathetic. Oh well, there's nothing I can do about it. Except whine constantly and feel sorry for myself. Aaarrgh!
21st-Jun-2008 09:03 am - Yay!
I'm so happy, look at my pretties! :D Thank you so much, all of you who voted for my stories! And a huge congrats to all the other winners out there! *hugs*



and...



*doing Numfar's dance of joy*
21st-May-2008 08:49 am - Story of my life...
I'm home. Finally! Ok, I haven't been gone that long, just about 24 hours. But still, feels more like a year.

Some of you already know that I miscarried for the second time in February and ever since then, I haven't felt very well. For one thing, I've been bleeding constantly for three months. So, I finally decided that I'd had enough and got an appointment to see if that was really normal. Turns out it wasn't. The doctors told me there were remains left from the latest pregnancy and that they were going to do a minor surgery to get it all out. They also told me that the whole thing wouldn't take more than 15 minutes and that I would be able to go home again within 2 hours. Yeah, right.

I got back to the hospital a couple of days later to get it done and I really wasn't that nervous at all, mostly happy to get it over with. Well, I probably would've been more nervous if I had known what it would be like. Turns out there were complications during the surgery, and instead of waking up when it was all done, they woke me up in the middle of it, since they couldn't get the bleeding to stop. Needless to say, it hurt like hell. But they gave me a lot of nice drugs so I wouldn't feel the pain, so I really don't remember much. I was pretty out of it, which was probably a good thing. However, I do vaguely recall shouting at the doctors in English for some reason, which had to be a result of all the fics I've been reading and writing since I don't actually speak English. Kinda funny.

Finally they managed to get things stabilized. They later told me I had lost 1,5 litres of blood which is pretty much. I had to stay at the hospital over night, again. But now I'm home and feeling all right after the circumstances. Just really tired. And happy it's all over. And thankfully, the doctors think it's most likely I will get pregnant again. Hopefully things will get better next time. Of course, that's what I thought the last time, too. But I'm not gonna worry about that now. All right, enough with the ramblings, I've probably bored you all to tears by now. But for some reason, it helps to write about it. I'll be home from work for the rest of the week and I plan to do absolutely nothing but rest. And, of course, maybe reading a fic or two. :)
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